Oct. 2
currently listening to: Crystal Castles - Kept
Today's Topic: Career Aspirations
Nothing. I want to sleep.
But alas, some dreams can never come true. These sinful hands of mine must perform labor.
I've considered becoming a librarian, but my grandma is against it. Which is understandable since the pay isn’t that high for the level of education you need to get (masters degree). So I guess I’ll keep that as a backup for now. My next plan is basically my current fabled "dream job": Museum Archivist. I honestly haven’t done too much research into the job, I just wanted to work at a museum and figured that this one suited me the most. (I don’t want to interact with others and I don’t mind doing tedious things). My grandma is also a bit iffy about this one, but that doesn't matter because first and foremost, I am an unfilial child.
So the loose plan is that I get good grades, form connections, and get work experience (what I'm doing rn supposedly)→ graduate uni → study abroad for my master’s degree in museum studies→??? As you can see, I still have to sort out all the details, but hopefully I'll figure things out (and soon). Right now for my undergrad, I feel like I haven't really achieved much. Maybe I should be trying harder or something because all I have is good grades and a deep agony in my heart.
Recently, I got another job that’s sort of related to this. It’s simply helping out my anthropology professor with archiving documents and stuff. Some would call this boring, but me? It's oddly satisfying and strangely relaxing. I just enter a trance and somehow I’ve sorted, organized, and labelled everything. Me and robots share many things in common. Honestly, compared to my other job (a front desk job), the amount of stress is significantly less. Probably because I’m socially inept and anxious, but I feel like archival work is easier. Suffice to say, if this museum archivist thing doesn’t work out, I’ll still be looking for jobs that don’t require much human interaction and are low stakes, unstressful. If only there was a job that would let me laze around in bed all day ;w;
Sept. 22
currently listening to: Detektivbyrån - Nattoppet
Thinking about the future gives me so much anxiety, but I want to create a reason for me to look foward to it. Maybe while I'm busy exisiting in a thousand agonies, I can give myself something to be hopeful about. Or who knows, when I crash and burn in a few years, I can look back on this fondly.
Today's Topic: Dream Apartment (or home if I'm lucky)
In my romanticized imaginings, I would live in some cozy apartment in a small European country. It definitely won't be as aesthetic as I imagine, but there is a strong appeal to moving somewhere far away where I can completely reshape my life (a picturesque life in Estonia is not attainable nor will it save me, but I can dream ;w;)
Putting that aside, here's a small list of things that I want to have in my 'dream apartment/home'
- laundry machine
- mini-library + study room
- sun room, so I can photosynthesize
- nice view
- kotatsu
- close to convenient places (work, public transport, etc.)
